Friday, May 8, 2015

Our trip condensed

Float Plan Basic

So many people are asking and wondering when we are leaving.  And since it is really a two fold experience living on the boat - let me explain.

First we will be living aboard in New England then we will be living aboard in the Caribbean.

June 19th 2015- we are looking to start living on the boat as of this day.  We will be sailing to Block Island for Block Island Race Week Regatta in which David is sailing.

July 1st, 2015 - the date our renters move in to the house.

July, August, September - living on the boat in our marina slip at NEB.  Sailing locally.

October 2015 - setting sail down the East Coast of the USA.  Heading toward Virginia to meet up with the Salty Dog Rally.

November 2015 - David's Dad and brother will be up from New Zealand to help him deliver the boat to the Caribbean.  Lana and the kids will be picked up by her parents and they will be doing a historical drive down to Florida (Home school field trips galore) where they will fly down to the Caribbean to meet up with David once boat is delivered.  (I know may seem like a cop out...not doing the delivery, but it was the deal maker when deciding to do the trip!!  I know my limitations and possibly 11 days on open ocean....no, not with our kids)

December 2015 through June 2016 - It will be just our family on the boat sailing the crystal clear waters of the Caribbean.



July 2016 - Back in our marina slip in Rhode Island.

Thursday, May 7, 2015

Finding Calm within Chaos

May 6, 2015

I have to admit today was a difficult one.
So much going on, so many check boxes to tick, two track life full speed ahead. 

I struggled all day knowing there is so much to get done, yet couldn't focus correctly.  Has this ever happened to you?

It's frustrating ...period.

Being alone at the boat for a good part of the day was good - I despise when my unsettled mood is opened to others....it's not often, and I try to not share it.  But yesterday was an exceptionally hard mental day and actually spilled over my negative energy (My apologies to those who were near my bubble of unsettled-ness).  

I have not figured out yet the true cause although conclusions have been drawn. Overwhelmed with boat tasks, house tasks, logistics of 'stuff' (stuff to get rid of, stuff to store, stuff to setup), nervous about prepping house for rental, nervous about the trip it self, am I prepared, will I miss the routine, yet looking forward to the lack thereof, Wanting to be on the boat Now, yet have so much to prepare prior, anxious for my son who is having a hard time transitioning as the house becomes more and more bare, excited for my other son who wants to celebrate the changes, 6 weeks until we move on the boat, 7 weeks to be out of the house, tick-tock, etc...etc...

Emotionally askew in a world moving forward.  

It wasn't until this evening at Cal's cub scout meeting I had a chance to be still, stop and walk. Let me preface, I was his pack leader, but a few months ago handed over the reigns.  I usually assist in some way but tonight I excused myself, which allowed me the opportunity to be still.   Meetings are held on church property, of which there is a cemetery. And this is where I found some calm.

Among the gravestones, inscriptions and the sun setting streams of light - there was quiet, solitude and calm.

The stillness of the bodies below, grounded me.  

Thankful for the moments presented and appreciated!    I can't say the uneasiness is fully purged, but at least I have some clarity.  

The universe surrounds us with beauty, we just need to take notice.
Enjoy a few pictures from the moments of calm.



Monday, May 4, 2015

Miller Time

Before I write about what brought us to the amazing couple who will be renting our house for the year....I need to talk about Miller Time.

For those who drink Miller Beer - do not get ahead of yourselves here.  There is a story to be told, and if you have read any of my other posts...the title does not always match the moral of the story!

So here I go...
Dave and I have lived in our house now for over 10 years.  A lasting memory of the sale was the response to the question...."What are the neighbors like?"  The response from the seller went something like this..."It's nice, they keep to themselves"

Boy did I under estimate how much they kept to themselves.  The properties touching ours were very quiet and never seemed to come out of the house.  To be honest not many were out in their yards except maybe to mow in summer.   Demographically....I would agree, this was an established neighborhood were their kids were nearly out of the house and mine were mere babes. So not much in common.

But when your husband travels ALOT....and family is very far away (New Zealand and New Jersey) your neighbors become family.  I simply thought this is how it went considering I grew up in a neighborhood where we called adults respectfully by their first names, ran through each other’s back yards, had many mom’s and dad’s looking out for me on the street and helping hands whenever you needed it.   Even in our first home, Bill and Jill - our sole accessible neighbors on the cul-de-sac - were our mentors, board game extraordinaire's and the bon-fire experts.  (Their children grown and we did not have any yet.)   They welcomed us like family and we reciprocated!  

So, I am not sure if this is a New England thing or just zeroed down to this street, but the seller was right, people kept to themselves!   (And must admit, post-partum depression did not exactly enhance the prospects!)

So a few years in we hosted an ice cream social for the neighborhood, it was fun, yet the sentiment remained the same, but now at least I knew the names of the people living around me.   So we carried on - a few new faces around the corner moved in (to which I left notes in their mailboxes greeting them to the neighborhood!) and a family a block away, who I have built friendships with.

Then it happened, the house closest to us next door, sharing an open property line (no fences) went on the market in the fall of 2013.  My immediate response was to start a mantra to the universe asking very specifically what I would like in a new neighbor.  It was not a long mantra, but specific and was repeated every time I drove past the for sale sign.   I asked, “Please allow that house to have a family who is similar to ours, celebrates life and has children around the age of my younger son, who like to play outside.”  This was not a generic request but quite specific and maybe varied in verbiage, but had this same gist every time.

I am not sure if it was my mantra that kept buyers away until the perfect family found it….or just the housing market consequences….but it took well over a year for it to go under contract.   And the day this family moved in – Dave and I both were over there greeting our new neighbors the Miller’s.

Thank goodness they were immediately open to us, for they could have been overwhelmed by our enthusiasm.  Trust me when I say we were well enthused on that cold winter day with snow mounds high, my hugs open hearted (and plentiful) and some homemade Berry Jam to welcome them the day they got the keys! 

There was no question in those first moments that this family was-amazing.  I cannot begin to say how blessed I feel to have them live next door to us, especially now that I have gotten to know them…to share our stories, lives and dreams. 

And here is the kicker for me….that validates using specific mantras…was they had 3 children.  One year older, one year younger and one the same age as Calan.  And they all love to play outside!!!   As a mother, there is nothing better than hearing the giggles, laughter and Joy coming from your child!  And already three short months later...I already feel they are a part of our family.  

  

 The only downside is that we are going to be living on our boat for a year and I will miss them terribly!  Before they moved in I did not care if we came back to this house, but now I am overjoyed knowing the Miller's live next door. 

Jenn reminds me of my sisters who I miss everyday and her gusto for life and 'get it done' attitude inspires me!  As we talked I came to find she too was praying for a neighbor like I was.   Pure Karma!  



Right now we look forward to the remaining few weeks in the house, then onto the summer months sharing docktails on Nemetona in her slip down the street until we depart and mostly their presence when we return from our sailing adventure to begin the era of ...Miller Time!!



Friday, April 24, 2015

The Boulder

When your heart is open and you try and live life with inner intent and soul searching serenity…you come upon many chances to discover something new about yourself. 
I have always seen this journey as a path, a path where I am moving forward.  I imagine a quiet dirt path, meandering its way through a tall wooded grove with sunlight streaming through the leaves searching for contact with the underbrush.

In a recently hard episode in my life - I felt that my journey became a shambles and I wasn't strong enough to stay on the path.   This recent incident derailed my journey for a couple of days, but with the insight of my close friend and confidant Erica - she reminded me of some very important thoughts. 

She so kindly said "I have not fallen off track but rather my journey is still happening and the episode is part of the journey."  Visualize the episode as a boulder that has been placed on the track and it has halted your forward progress.   It is true, my lack of forward motion made me feel stifled and congested in my thoughts.

"Use the boulder as an opportunity to learn something about yourself."


Her words resonated.  When I realized I hadn't fallen off track, and the many years of aspiring to be true to my core self weren't as fragile as I imagined…..I was enlightened and heartened.  I no longer felt off track, frazzled or like a failure.  Instead the boulder was a gift, an opportunity to look within, to halt, to reevaluate the path.   If we could all look at what is halting our journey with a soft heart, we would have some wonderful lessons to learn.  

She mentioned there is no way to go through the boulder or ignore it.  If I wanted to keep moving forward on my path I needed to address it, meditate on it. Accept it as a chance to grow.

Basically, in order to begin forward motion again the boulder needed to be moved and to move it I needed to shower it with my deeper understanding and love.   To find this I would have to meditate on the boulder, but first get to know it's size, weight, structure.  Then during the meditation - focus on what the boulder is, why it is there and how it could be moved with love through a singular focus.  To move it without an offensive measure but with tenderness.

This meditation had amazing results and gave me calm, strength, and highlighted my true essence, which ultimately lead me to the idea of how to move this boulder.  My resultant answer on how to move this particular boulder was genuine and came to me with insight, love, tenderness and giving.  I also meditated and envisioned how it would be received by the other person and hoped it would be felt the way in which it was meant to be.

I learned a lot about myself during this recent episode.   For one, I was reminded that all boulders give us a chance to stop and reevaluate our path, and if soft hearted we have the chance to learn some wonderful lessons.

Feeling eternally grateful for the episode, the guidance and the chance to address that boulder with love and focus.  I am a better, stronger person for it.

Saturday, April 11, 2015

A Shift...

This past Wednesday my friends mother passed away.  She was 96.  She lived many years raising a family of 6 kids and spent the last few years with Alzheimer's.  I found out about it via facebook while at an event I was working near Boston.  During the ride home late that night and into the days following many thoughts drifted in and out of my mind.  Similar to when you find out friends are getting a divorce....it makes you question your paradigm.  Your framework.  Your life.

Most of my thoughts and realizations about her loss made me think about my parents and that time when they too shall pass.  It made me reflective.  Made me look at all the amazing things they have done for and with their children and how I would handle that day.   THAT day when they are no longer a phone call away, a mere drive away, a mere flight away.

The word that kept coming into my consciousness was SHIFT. 
A shift of Thought.
A shift of Family.
A shift of Caring.
A shift of Giving.
A shift of Loving.

Made this for my friend Sue.
A Cairn marking the milestone of her mothers life,
the Alzheimer Flower Pin she gave me in support of her mother
and the 2 shells representing her life and her daughter Kate's.
So the loss is for those who remain on earth....or should I say the Shift is for those of us who remain. It is us who carry on the legacy, to write about it, to share it, to embody the things we learned from those who touch our lives.  Shifting our energies from the thoughts of loss to the thoughts of how we intend to live our days here on earth.  To embrace the beauty that is all around us (if we look), to touch the lives of those who enter our sphere (if we are open), to go within and shift our wants and desires to reflect the soul we have within.  

May we always be this way - even outside of death.  We have a short time to be effective human being here on earth...soften your heart, open your soul and touch upon the spirit we all have within.  





We're going for REAL....


Where do I begin.  Where do I begin....

The trip is happening.  REALLY Happening.

But do believe in the greater spirit of the universe providing such an amazing path leading to this point.

An amazing family found us on Zillow and wants to rent our beautiful home out for the year he attends the naval war college.  Sitting with her for 4 hours on Saturday and simply conecting and chatting about life and family solidified the amazing response the universe had for my request of just that.  Connecting with another family one who would love our home as much as us and take care of her while we embark on a once in a lifetime adventure with our children into the Caribbean.

If it was not for our brand new month old neighbor next door, who said Military families look on Zillow for rental listings.   We would not of had this amazing family wanting to rent our home. (Thank you Jen for being amazing!!!)

I promise we will be back after the year celebraating our good fortune to have you as our next door neighbors!!


Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Winter Boat Prep

Winter Boat Prep was tough this year.  The winter was amazingly beautiful....but with Tons of snow. Here in the North East of the USA we had a cycle of storms that kept dumping inches of snow. Not a problem if your a skier or snow shoe kinda person, but for a family trying to prepare for the trip of a lifetime...it was a hindrance.

But I can say proudly that today April 7th, 2015 around 8am the beautiful s/v Nemetona touched water for the first time since last fall.

This feat took the will power of one determined man withstanding bitter cold temps armed only with a tiny space heater.  With the boat completely emptied out of cushions and luxury items....David amazingly and faithfully went to the boat whenever possible to get through our massive Boat prep check list.

(Mind you this Boat prep checklist was just to get her in the water...we still have about 2 other boat checklists hanging on our wall!)


This winter David did the following
  • Remove Water heater (which meant cutting out part of the bed frame to make this possible) 
  • Paint bilge area 
  • Drill a new through hole, (fill, patch, sand, seal and paint) 

  • Back fill a through hole (fill, Patch, sand, seal and paint) 
  • Replace about 3 through holes (sand, seal and paint) 



















  • Prep area for fuel filtration system 
  • Prep areas for water maker system 
  • Reattach hoses 
  • Reattach wet exhaust system 
  • Sand bottom of the boat 
  • First coat of anti foul painted on 
There are so many other things I am unaware of...and hope to get a full list from David at some point.

Then in the last week and a half together we have been (in the somewhat warmer though damper weather)
  • Grinding down spots on the bottom of the boat 
    

         
  • Wiping bottom clean with 216

  • Second coat of anti foul painted on
  • Third coat of anti foul around waterline and keel and rudder

       


  •  Wash off and dry topsides
  • Compound and polish sides

    


    Wax Off
  • Wax on and Wax off sides 
  •  Washed and Waxed the green waterline

  • Waxed the spot we could not reach from the scaffolding and some really dirty spots in the cockpit/companion way and transom.  (It was also a test to see if the large buffer could be used in these areas when she is in the water, without spattering polish everywhere.....confirmed.  Yeah)





Again I am sure David has done an enormous amount of work other than what is listed here...but just thought I would document at least some of the hard/complicated work that has been done to the boat since January.  I hope to someday to get a listing of all the upgrades and changes we have done to her.

Still smiling.....
Until then...just know we are getting excited about moving onto the boat in a few months.  The house has found renters, homeschooling has been approved by the town and med kit is ready.

As my friend John says, just keep picking at the mountain.  Each and every moment find something to do that reduces the size of the mountain and in time it will be 'moved'.
In our case it will be 'sailing'.


Bump in the road

So this winter was harsh....not just from the "Can't make progress on the boat prep when it's this cold" or "thank god my parents left me their Snow Blower when they moved to FL" aspect, but evidence from the pictures posted here show that the roads were hit hard too.

SO to add to our already fun and monotonous Car stories since October.....
We have hit another bump in the road.
Literally!
A Pot hole....not that huge, but very deep.  
Hidden by slush on a dark Wed. night heading to Cub Scouts.
BAM, Shudder, pull and a "what in the world was that...were we just in another accident??"

Did all I could to grab my composure when we pull into the parking lot of scouts and see a tow truck there hooking up a small red car.  No doubt they too hit the said pot hole.
So I went on to calm my son and explained we will know after scouts if any major damage if we see a bubble form on the outside of the tire.  
Promptly after the meeting, before getting in the car he checks the tire....no bubble that he could see.  PHEW
Next morning - after more snow....I am shoveling near the passenger tire and what do I see......
The bubble.
The Bubble
Ugh, Exhale, Breathe in. Clear head. Think clearly.
Need to wait for David to return from business trip, drive to Town Fair Tire, Replace.  Ca-ching. Done. Simple.

Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it!



Friday, March 20, 2015

Inner & Outer

In the craziness that has been my first few months of 2015, (in our cold, stark, snowy world of RI)...I had many obstacles to hurdle.   In that time I began to drift from my true inner self...I was so exhausted by the outer invasion of information and deadlines and health issues, I lost a sense of the Inner.
Sometimes we do not realize how much of the Inner we lose until a light is fixed upon it, or words are brought before us that make us stop and think.
Today was one of those days...In the midst of all that is going on I stood up and took notice of some words that brought me back to my inner.
Let me explain...I have started another one of Deepak Chopra's guided meditations.  (I have done others before, but not recently...this past Monday though I started a new 21 day meditation presented by Chopra Institute)
I just read the reminder email that was sent - it outlines the thoughts for that particular meditation and this is what it said.....

Matching Inner and Outer
In the S-M-A-R-T acronym, the letter A stands for “agreement with your inner self and those around you.” Agreement means harmony, mutual support, and even love. For there to be agreement between the inner world of our values, goals, and beliefs and the outer world full of contentious individuals with conflicting ideas, we must find a deeper level of commonality. That agreement is based on your personal connection to universality. Steve Jobs expressed this agreement perfectly: “You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.”

Our centering thought for today is:
My inner and outer worlds mesh perfectly.



"I think true success is intrinsic... It's love. It's kindness. It's community."  — Tom Shadyac



Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Monday, March 16, 2015

Percentages....


Sometimes when in conversation with people we love and are most comfortable with, the words simply flow.   And in these moments we can string together the most eloquent of verbiage - a gem that shines above all else.

Even if those words were spoken before by someone famous, or a quote we may have read before - it does not seem as touching or revealing as when it flows in context of what we are living (or trying to live).  

One of these conversations happened recently with my sister.  In the mix of daily lives spoken (motherhood, worker bee, wife, travel plans, boat prep and house renting...) our conversation lead us down a path quite beautiful and simple.  Now if I could only remember the exact eloquence with which she proffered this gem...

I wonder why I can not remember the exact words, but have come to the conclusion in peace.   Such beauty is whimsical and fleeting - as the Japanese believe in Mujo (the impermanence of things) like the blossoms of a cherry tree, so it is the same (it seems) for words spoken. 

I seemingly cannot remember the exact string of words because I am out of context to the subject matter that we spoke about weeks ago.   Simply out of touch with the moment that carried us to those words.  But the sentiment was resounding and evoked a feeling from me.  And it is that feeling I would like to share with you today so you can absorb this in your own reality.


You may not need to throw 100% of yourself into EVERYTHING you do....
but rather GIVE 100% of YOURSELF in that PERCENTAGE you are willing to GIVE of yourself to that cause. 


TO be sure the cause is worthy of you, be sure to meditate on it, so your core being and your mind are aligned.  And in doing so it will reflect the true nature of who you are.  

If you are asked to run a fundraiser for instance, be sure it is something you are aligned with heart and soul - and it will be easy to give 100% of yourself into that cause.  Just like us renting our home, moving onto a 47 foot sailing vessel - if it did not align with our beings it would be a struggle to give 100% toward the cause.   But I want to do it and experience it.
But that trip is not all I am about right now...I am still a mother, wife, daughter, employee, cook, cleaner, accounts person. planner, packer etc....all of these things I need to do/be....and some are not fun.....so I choose which of those pieces of my 'life pie' gets 100% of me.  Cleaning, cooking....not all 100% of my attention, but my kids and husband piece of the pie get 100%.  

Thursday, March 5, 2015

9 months.......and counting

This post I had ready to go out in January.....9 months prior to departure.  But with the health issue - it got put on the back burner.   I loved thinking about this post last year.....cause I knew what I wanted to write back then!!!   So here goes.....

9 months.......and counting
No not a baby, but the gestation period prior to embarking on this amazing family journey is just like being pregnant.  So we are about 9 months away from heading down the coast to our jump off point in VA. down to the Caribbean.  Just as a baby is in constant growth and change during gestation....so will this journey of preparation and alteration.

Our lives are still moving forward in anticipation for this wonderful event.  There are joyful days of insight and wonder, just as there are days of overwhelming feelings of exhaustion and fear. Considering our To Do lists may not be completed when it is time.  Just like we felt before our first son was born.

Babies come when they are good and ready - right now we know our departure is definitely in September.  But we have a bushel full of unknowns that hang around us as we attempt to put our house up for rent.  We cannot do this trip if the house is not rented.  But I have faith that we will we find a wonderful family to rent our home - I know the universe will provide us that.  I Hope!?!   That unknown makes packing things up difficult...but I am still doing it.   You know, I think everyone about every 10 years needs to act like they are moving out.  To Un-clutter their lives and spaces of the accumulation.  The things that are not needed anymore get passed on or thrown away.  Simplicity.

I know when Liam and Calan were born, I felt those moments of simplicity when rocking them to sleep.  Nothing else mattered except connecting with that baby.   Just hours of staring into the wonder of the miracle.

9 months of anticipation and then that sweet connection.
It is a beautiful thought, just like this trip is meant to be!

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Miss me? Sorry I was looking for a gown.......

Sorry I have not posted in a while.......
I wondered if you had Missed me, but I was looking for a gown.......
"A gown?" you say.   "A gown" I say.

Those who know me - can attest I am not the gown kinda girl, but recently I had to wear one more often than I would have liked.

What type of gown you may wonder.....well there are all types.



There are Wedding gowns, Ball gowns, Prom gowns, Communion gowns and  dressing gowns...



In January,  I apparently did not realize I needed the latter.......a dressing gown.  See my lovely fashion bonanza~as much as I tried, the fit was not right.  Haha




I spent more than 4 weeks trying to perfect my look in said gown.  While in and out of the changing rooms - I would put on my dressing gown (or johnny as the nurse would call it) and pose in the mirror looking for the right fit.  
Now I was not in a dire situation, but for all the mental anguish, at times I felt it.   

As the story goes, I went in for my annual mammogram.  No problem...a bit of discomfort, but made it through.   Then a while later a call saying they needed to do a 2nd mammogram.  No problem, I have done this before....one time they even grabbed part of the muscle in the initial exam and had to redo.  (By the way Painful does not explain muscle in a mammogram!)

So I was not worried.  

Onto, mammogram #2.  This time at the hospital.  I walk in to see my right breast up on the screen with a dark mark smack dab in front of me.  I ask "Is that what your are looking for today?"  The answer a Yes.   That tinge of "Wait...if I can see that and I am NOT a doctor..." ran through my mind.

So I go through round two of discomfort and breath holding to find out they want to do an Ultra sound.  So now onto round three of right breast expose.  

After the ultra sound the Doc goes on to tell me they need to do an MRI "to better locate the object in question for a biopsy".  

Biopsy??!@#?  Huh.  So I say..."Well if you are going to Biopsy I need you to take the whole dang thing Doctor....ya see my family and I are renting our house for a year to leave in September from these waters to cruise down the coast to the Caribbean....all to make deeper connections within our family." 

He must have thought I was nuts for saying that about the biopsy (or maybe for doing the trip in general).  But by all means, I was serious.   

My mind grew fiercely focused on the possibility this could be cancer (and the doctor was not easing that thought)  and at the same time the only clarity in my mind was not that 'Cancer could kill me', but rather 'Cancer be Gone - I have life to live and a once in a life time trip planned!'     And in the same breath...it could be nothing, simply a lumpy breast!  

I usually pride myself on my Libra type attitudes.  Weighing out the options, waiting for the balance to return on it's own accord, believing the universe will come right.   But in hind sight, I was unable to get that balance.  I struggled, I mean with all the other things on my TO DO LIST, this announcement plopped a 50 pound bag of "What the F..." on one arm of my  balanced Scale. 


As you could imagine, thoughts of this simply filled my idle moments. 
With the trip in mind -  and unbeknownst to my conscious efforts to block it out until further conclusive evidence, I automatically went into planning for the worst mode.  I needed to have a plan in place so that if something were needed to be done to my breast, I was ready and we could still sail off come September and keep our family goal in sight.  

Heck, if we were land lubbers and the trip were not happening, I Know in my heart I would of had a different reaction and would have had a better response.  I mean the MRI did not even happen yet but WOW did it affect me.  

All in all - there was a month in between the request to have an MRI and actually having it. 
4 weeks of thoughts.....and foggy mindedness.  It took so long to schedule because they had to submit the info to my doctor for review and recommendation, then contact our Insurance for approval, to find out the Insurance was not working.  Then a week or so later the Insurance working again.....all of which I will not bore you with.    But it definitely took up way to much time and delayed the MRI for weeks........I am happy to report the dark spot found in my Mammogram and in the MRI was found to 'look' nonmalignant!!!!!   Follow up in 6 months to track it, but nothing for now....PHEW, Yeah, woohoo and all that jazz.  

After nearly 2 months of thinking about the what if's.....It took about a solid day for the relief to feel real and the JOY of planning the trip and connecting with people began - again!!!  

In reflection I learned something new about me.  I notice that when I am not feeling up, I tend to build walls around me - Not so much to protect myself, BUT to protect others from feeling my uncertainty and negative energy.  

After mentioning the 2nd mammo/MRI to some people - their immediate response of "Don't worry my friend had that - it was nothing" or "you'll be fine" came across shallow and un-fulfilling.  It may seems like a sweet thing to say, but really It made me close up, build higher walls.   A response more like...."How do you feel about it?"  or "Are you ok what can I do?" seemed more appropriate, but at the time could not put my finger on why these responses were making me feel diminutive.   I did mention it to a friend who is a breast cancer survivor and her first response was "When you schedule the MRI let me know, I will come with you for support!" WOW - her ability to receive my information and give back what I needed was astounding!!

Another thing I learned in all this was to keep my husband close and share my real fears with him.  We have been together over 17 years, and he travels alot, so I have learned to just 'Get 'er done', 'Don't bother him while travelling with issues he has no way of helping me with'.  It was a truly conscious effort to break that habit and share with him what I was thinking along the way.

The best part is, his gracious, soft heart stayed open and strong for me the whole time.  He did not make me feel like I was crazy for planning 'as if' it was something horrific.  He just listened.  He came with me to the MRI even after three times me saying, "Honey you do not need to come with me, you'll just be sitting in the waiting room".  But no - each of the three times I was giving him an 'out', three times he said he was coming.  I know he is busy with work and His boat to do list, but he still came and sat patiently for more than an hour it took for the MRI to happen.  



Yes - can you believe - more than an hour.  I was scheduled for a contrasting MRI which means I needed an IV.  Well, I know from giving blood that I need to hydrate ALOT before I go - just to get my veins to be properly plump.   And I was a bit dehydrated which meant I became the nurses pin cushion.  I apparently have very 'rolly' veins......they made 3 attempts where they got it in, but was not sitting properly...and that's when they had to call in a Pro!   (With which after we waited for her, she had my IV in in about 5 seconds!!  Thank God!)   Anyway, when I was finished, there was Dave waiting patiently.  (He is the one who took my lovely gown shot at the top of this post!  =)
  
Anyway...this experience has shifted my heart and my mind.  Sometimes we need a HALTING life moment to make us savor life, our partners and...for me this trip even more!!!

Maybe even more important on a singular note - we need to take time to reflect or meditate on our true feelings in order to learn the lessons within!

NAMASTE!












Friday, February 6, 2015

Check list....check marks

YEAH!  Another Check mark off the check list....

A big task for me was organizing the Medical side of things.
Try thinking about a year's worth of Medical needs and supplies for your whole family.  Not just your run of the mill Cough medicine.  Think wounds, oral care and stitches.  Think burns, broken bones and food poisoning, all without an Urgent Care Facility around the block.

This is no small undertaking, but one with the help of the Conway Family's trip 2 years ago and Erica's excellent organizational and List making skills, has broken it down into an easier more comprehensible task.

We researched many options for medical kits...and decided in conjunction with taking a First Aid course we would purchase the comprehensive Adventure Medical Marine 2000 kit.

We just received it last night and the waterproof bag was bigger than I expected....but I had to remember this was not a first aid kit, this is a MEDICAL KIT.

Inside contains smaller bags, each appropriately marked with the category of contents.  Bleeding, Burns, CPR, Medications, etc...
We will also still use our regular First Aid kit, which stays in eye view for daily cuts and scrapes.

Tonight while going through all the compartments. it caught the attention of our oldest son who said "Mom, I feel much better about doing the trip knowing we have this on board!"   WOW!!  My heart leaped, for he has had the most resistance about leaving his friends and worried the most about the unknown.
So, even if we return and do not have to open the zipper on this bag, him saying those words makes it worth every penny!  We want our children to feel safe on our journey - and this brings them one step closer to that realization.

Last item on the medical kit list.....just waiting on the Pharmacy to fill the prescriptions we just received from our doctor.  Feels good to get these types of items off the checklist while the weather is still freezing.  Once Spring rolls around the focus goes onto Nemetona and getting her ready!




Saturday, January 31, 2015

Hot Stuff...

Well, to say Dave has been on fire with the task of prepping the boat (in god awful COLD conditions here in RI) is an understatement!   When he returns from his work trip next week I will endevour to get more details on his preparations of the boat.   Watermaker, new water heater, through holes, etc..... It is harder than you think to get a moment to do this.

On the other hand - I am literally Hot stuff right now.  Running a fever...which is not wanted at all, but know I must bow down to it's firey force or end up sicker longer.  Started in the lungs with a tight chest on Thursday (thought it was just asthma with the really dry air) but Noooo.  It festooned into a lovely hot mess.

So I leave you with pause...
Take care of yourself
do not run yourself ragged
do not let your mind run wild with adverse thoughts
Be at peace

Easier said than done...but try!





Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Water, water everywhere...

Looking out the door today.......I noticed the natural beauty of water.  
Water all around us.  
Water in it's frozen form.
Hardened and reaching out into tiny crystal formations.  
One moment it took to notice, one moment to stop, one moment to look.   This moment allowed me to enjoy the sheer beauty of it.   It is breath taking.  
The 3 shots below bring you closer to the unique formation that found itself clinging onto the glass. Clinging until the heat of the sun decides it's time to melt it.  Time to make it fluid once again.
The fluid water - that in a year, we will be sailing with, living on, swimming in.  

Water, water everywhere....


 


Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Prepping for Rental

In an attempt to un-clutter the house and prep it for rental photos....I have come to like the starkness, the simplicity of it all.

     

     

Now only 7 more rooms to go!!!

Sunday, January 11, 2015

ODE to Spreadsheets


This evening highlighted the need for Spreadsheets!  Our 4 pages of tiny print below is of our Winter To Do List!!!   It looks insane, but amazingly between, work, school, sports, activities and trying to live today's life......we are actually checking things off.  =)  
Overall spreadsheets have helped us to line up comparisons for best options with boat purchases, creating the task lists, and figuring out our budget.



This brings me to this weekend and Dave and I reading the plethora of different blogs and articles about the best strategies for money management while at sea.   Trying to dig through all the advice about this and the least amount of bank fees and foreign transaction fees, is mind boggling!!!
So much so, I have to stop reading, take a breath and sleep on it overnight.  THEN wake up, re-read with the Spreadsheet Program Open and start jotting down details for each suggestion.   Then and only then will I scratch the surface on organizing these thoughts and begin the task of reviewing with David some effective strategies.

Every dollar kept in the bank adds up.  And most ATM fees begin at $3.00 in foreign countries and go up from there, and both the ATM and credit cards charges a percentage to convert your foreign transaction (called a conversion fee).  Imagine the gift you give to the bank when away for 10 months, going to many different islands of which have ties to a 'mother country'.  England, France, Holland.....Cha-Ching.

So tonight after a tough few days of feeling overwhelmed and not quite effective living this two track life........I am going to consult my pillow overnight and start fresh in the morning!   Spreadsheet dreams tonight!




Thursday, January 8, 2015

Happiness Catching Fire.....

Finding your simplest form of happy.

Today I shifted my paradigm and did something for me.  It made me extremely happy inside, connected, rooted .

I stopped for a moment and took control of myself in a simple gesture.  I stopped letting all the things, lists, to dos that are running around my peripheral and central vision....and listened to what I desired.

It was sincerely like playing hooky from my life, but gave me such a sense of focus, joy and love. 
I ran around prior to it and had tons to do after it.....but I just needed to know I was still in control of the simple desire to do something for me.

I went to a matinee mid week without kids! Without it being a kid movie or animated movie!  I know you probably thought it was something juicier or more in depth.  But no.  I simply found time to see a movie, mid-week, no kids, no spouse....before it left the big screen forever.
I am happy to say my friend Sue came along for the ride....to which I thank her for witnessing my desire to retire for 2 hours this afternoon before resuming the checklist of life.

May this blog be Catching Fire within your Soul - so you too will listen for your simple desire!!

Friday, January 2, 2015

To meditate or not to meditate....

January 2, 2015

Homeschooling choices.....

If I can get over having to teach 7th grade pre-algebra while homeschooling on a boat....I am more inclined to think I can add another subject to our daily learning.

Meditation.


While watching a news show on the benefits of giving kids Two 15 minute segments a day to have Quiet time.  A California school extended their day by a half an hour so they could include meditation.

NBC Nightly News on Meditation (click here to see clip)
     

I have done meditation and have reaped the rewards of this amazing centering, but have not been so apt to extend that knowledge to our boys in a concentrated manner.   A few times a week I sit with our boys at bed time and listen to them and draw them out, but I think this addition to our routine will be welcome - and - a lifelong gesture of love for their self actualization.   Since this trip is about connecting with our children along with sharing our passions.  This self connection is also paramount.

I would love nothing more than giving our boys the ability to find solitude, quiet, centering thoughts and mindfulness at an early age.

Time will tell and the efforts will be noted.

I just hope I can etch out enough time in the next 9 months to practice meditation more for myself, as well as, start the conversation with them.


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